I'm quickly finding that keeping a blog is a great way of noting down stuff I've learnt. 2006 contained some hefty lessons..
It was my most volatile year, the first time I had had a losing month, the first time I'd had 2 losing months and by the middle of April I was still to get into positive territory. I spent a lot of time working out what was happening and hopefully I've come out stronger because of it.
The biggest lesson was to learn what it is really like to lose. To feel like I was losing consistantly and turning into a loser. For a gambler this means paying a heavy emotional price. You enter a spiral of ever worsening feelings and it can be very difficult to get out of. At some point the emotions also become a destructive force, adding to the list of causes for the ever deepening losses. I lost count of the number of times I fought back to get to level for the year, only to fall away even steeper each time.
I've always considered one of my strong points to be my mental game. I built the beginning of my gambling career on a foundation of good fundamental thoughts, and I always kept a tab on how I was thinking. The end of 2005 and the first 1/3rd of 2006 saw me lose sight of this.
I've since figured out that it was down to losing my long term goals and my ambition. I was lucky enough to afford a house in 2005 and spent several months renovating it. Owning a house was always my long term goal, almost from the beginning - as soon as realised I might be able to get there. Having finally done it, my goal had been realised, I didn't update my goals... I had nothing new to aim for and no real reason for sitting down to work anymore. And I paid for it. I was going through the motions instead of focusing on what I was doing, and it doesn't take much to turn from a winner to a loser in this game if you aren't focused and you don't have the drive and energy to put into it.
2006 was the year I learnt the importance of goals and also how to get out of the spiral of losing emotions. I also learnt that time is an important commodity for a gambler.
Time to think. Gamblers and traders need time to think about things and time to get away from the computer screen. If I don't give myself time to think about what happened yesterday and what might be happening today, then I'm not really learning. This got me started on the right path again after my losing months. I took the decision to go for a walk in the mornings, 30 minutes. During which time I would think through the things I did wrong from the day before - and equally as important - the things I did right. I began to learn from what I was doing again and slowly I began to realise my head had been in the clouds, or should I say - sand. It was a slow process, but I had much to face up to and only time would allow it to surface for me and to come to terms with it.
I had developed a lot of bad mental habits. Suddenly loses that hurt in the old days were being met with numbness. The winning mentality which I had found relatively easy to maintain in the past had become extremely difficult to attain let alone maintain for any period of time. Bad habits take time to get out of, that's why learning from the good things you do is very worthwhile.
I also learnt that time was important in my bets and trades too. Time can be considered an edge as much as anything else. Time can be the value factor in my trade and I increasingly found this to be true later on in the year.
You can see I learnt a fair bit... :)
Bet sizes. This was a re-learn, but in slightly more spectacular style. Each market has a sensible limit to the size of bet it can take. Liquidity. I bet too big at times in the last few months of the year for the liquidity in the market and I paid for it. More patience is required from me to wait for the right markets to go in so large. Running up a £20,000 exposure in an early round, internet scoreboard only tennis match, between two players that next to no-one has ever heard of before, is generally, not a good idea !
I'll probably add more as it comes to me, this is definitely a post I plan on reading again over time.